It's been almost four weeks since starting my new job. My whole life revolves around a 5pm-1am shift. My weekends are actually Wednesday and Thursday. My commute to work is three hours (bus) and my commute home is an hour (I get a ride home). I resent waking up just before noon, yet I can't seem to wake up any sooner. I leave an additional hour earlier for work because I have a six month probationary period, and there is a strict attendance policy so I can't risk being late.
I have been reading a great deal (upside to riding the bus), but I am too tired, and my head is too hazy to write. I miss my old life though I desperately wanted and needed a new job. Now I have a better job, but my personal life has shifted in an almost inconsolable way. I'm whining, which I hate, but what else is there for me to do?
I keep telling myself, I am going to adjust, and I honestly believes this. I fear folks will forget me (even though I just showed up recently in the blogosphere in the first place and why do I think my new found connections are really going to miss me?) Why am I so attached so quickly?
Because of my new job, I couldn't plan and host our National Women's History Month celebration and I really regret this. Actually, a part of me resents it. Last year was incredible, and I know we could have really done some meaningful, amazing things this year. I'm mourning the lost opportunity.
Anywhoo, I'll have to find other ways to celebrate this month, to inspire young girls and to help me get over my disappointment.