So my assistant and I cataloged and shelved new books. Yay! Then I spoke with my coordinator about any progress getting staff to support the library and for the agency to draft a policy regarding missing books. Nope. Nada. Not a priority. I saw a few girls before leaving and asked them if they had their books to return and they nonchalantly said, "Oh, well it's on my dresser" and "I was suppose to bring it but I forgot."
I feel like I am banging my head against a wall. Worse, I feel defeated. I'm not doing enough. What am I doing wrong? Why can't I get the message across that the library matters, that reading matters?
It seems everybody else gets us except the community I'm trying to serve. And let's not forget the dose of guilt. Because I work midnights and have limited transportation, I'm not at agency like I was when I started which amounted to practically living there. The truth is even when I was there all the time the resistance was about the same. ((sigh))
The upside is I do have a good rapport with the residents in the shelter. My assistant organizes movie night on Sundays, and some girls will return books then and ask to check out new ones. And my current assistant is a wonderful young woman who reads and enjoys the library.
I want more. I want to be effective. I want to make a difference. Okay, I'll get off the pity pot. I do have some hope that some of you here are reading new authors because of BES and Color Online. I do believe some teacher or student is talking about a book they've read about here so that has to be enough for now. Until I hit the lottery and form my own nonprofit and run programs like I want!
Check out my girls at Poet Mom.